your relationship

are you in a relationship?
if you er,have you ever ask yourself ..how would i feel if i leave this relationship,how would i feel if i step out of this relationship...can i really do without this person at this moment....
have you asked yourself?
life is complicated and this can bring about confusion that is if you really wanna ask yourself
if you dont know,take a short break in your relationship and see if you guys would permanently break up or even come back to love each other more..if you er willing,then you wld learn lessons ,,,,,bitter and sweet!
and er! dont worry,it worths it ..dont leave your question unanwered.....it saves ur time man in order to move on for the next level and to know whether you are standing in the right part!!

can u...pleasure

see...u know one thing i get to see everyday
onething i get to acknowlegde more and more


its how to deny yourself of what gives you pleasure like...food,relationships,internet,game and so on
its prettty hard but it works for me
ok ok
y would you want to deny yourself of such lovely feelings and liberty if i may say especially when it comes to you men!!
ok there's this saying...that too much of everything aint good...
thats so true
we know it aint right to get addicted to anything you like or gives ur body pleasure
cos the consequences thereof aint good!!!
when those things arent available..how do we then handle...yes handle the situation..and most of all ,handle yourself!!! how?
it(ur continual pleasure) would start some embarrassing habits you might not be able to get rid of,
note that every pleasurable thing that you get addicted to would also give you a lump...i mean develop another character that you cant avoid which becomes your weakness

in other words every addicted thing you like equals a nasty habit that would grow beyond your control..do you agree with me,


now now!
how do we overcome such ,especially to those of us that has developed a bad habit!!!!!!
you have to be AGRRRESIVE
yes AGGRESSIVE internally against ur weaknesses


ok let me deal with those of us that hasnt yet developed a weakness to the things we love..sorry i mean develop a bad habit/embarrasing habit towards our continual selfish satisfaction!


am inspired today because of the guy i met properly and better today!!!!
i have always seen him from afar and never really noticed him Until some friends made me
and i only saw him properly when i got to talk with him
this brilliant chap said he cant do without his breakfast!! and he can never forget it...that em! he wont be comfortable throughout the day...he wont smile and bladiblah!!

men ! i asked if he cld fast! he said no
ohh! i felt bitter !! y wld such a brilliant chap like this not know the implication of doing without some life(YOU ARe not to make ur pleasure,ur way of life..if you do not want to be addicted)!!i know oneday he might read this..just incase you do...you inspired me!!!kkkk
thanks!!

i told him to........ok lemmebreak this and make a part2..i gat to go now!!!
stay tuned..lol
part2 next week

today 20 feb 08

Today was pratically boring.....new job..new system,new production..new scheme..new introduction...boring...
where i work ...there's this job we got to do ...and we had to re check it..we call it quality checking...granny's job!
men! kai! chai! it was bo-bo-bo-boring ..uninteresting..lol i was looking like a granny myself!
lol ...it just looked as if the atmosphere around there had sucked-up the sense of humour from some fannie pple!!!
oh boi!
at the end of the day..it was fun! sha!
but i donot wannna do that again
men! its was really boring but i wont give yah details!!

yaiksssssssssssssssssssss!!

okay during a day off @work,I took an injection that made me eat and eat and eat… The next day my cheeks were already pumped…lol.sha! sha! I put on my suit and got ready for work. I noticed my suit pants were tighter. Something was telling me to take a bigger suit jacket but I ignored. I was late because of the sleepy injection so I decided to go by a bike.(okada) I jumped on the bike and I found out that my trouser..poh!!! Oh! Mine…after reaching half way, I told the bike man to turn back and take me home… He refused…I faced my fear and told him! Abeg! Ur okada don tear my trouser ,take me…” he was like “ha! Sorry oh!’’ He felt pity and took me home I never thought I wld ever do that…telll a bike man..hmmm!(sometimes you do things you never taught you wld have done) Its maturity joh! What if I didn’t..he wld have dropped me on the way with a torned panty…yikes!!!!!!!!! (but it wasnt funny dat day

nijas buses...lol...fun

Boarding one of the Nigerian buses You need to know what pple face when they get into the mess of public transport Apart from a taxi, there’s lots of irritability accompanied by hostile environment. You need to be smart and look tough. Sometimes you board a bus very hungry and the smell of local food (yam and pepper) you perceive …and you hate to swallow but you don’t wanna vomit now!! You just have to swallow! Yak! Well how about the time where you are the last person to enter the bus and you get to seat near the door. This is another awful especially when you are the slimmest on the row. Use your normal accent and they would all be gazing as if white angel from heaven just appeared. In other to avoid attention you then say “abeg! Shift” but there’s one thing you can’t hide you accent, they move but they still get to look for the tiny voice that said “so” How about the time I got to seat near a fat woman and I was sardined between her and the wall of the bus. As if that was not enough she had this dirty baby. I mean I love kids but this one I mean was extremely dirty. Oh! You think it can’t be that bad. Let me give you a detailed hint: no clothes on, no dippers only a dirty panty( this is dangerous, the baby can poo and pea at any time), mucous all over the nose dripping down to the mouth, the baby licks the mucous ,touches it too and touches every other person around. How about that?...lol but it wasn’t funny that day! The woman uses her hand to wipe of the mucus from the baby’s nose and then robs her hand on her cloth. Ha! I try to put ma head outside the window and see how far my nearest bus-stop is. The woman and her kid begin to play and she’s amused at the sounds her baby makes. She smiles at me at her own amusement and I am so not in the mood but I don’t be to “what’s the word” should I day wicked or snobbish or unfriendly or…whatever. I try to smile by raising only one cheek up. The baby now try’s to pull ma hair, tries to touch ma hearings. The baby is not even afraid of adult “yeah!! Which kind wahala be this” I gatta do something. Okay here goes, the dirty baby tries to touch me again and this time I shrug gently and I made sure the mother notice. I then sigh uncomfortably and loud. Lol...this time it worked and the woman held and prevented her baby each time she tries to touch me! Thank God my bus-stop. bye bye dirty baby or sucker .yes now she sucks ……….lol I mean sucks her…whatever. Triumph This is just part one

my lord and stubborn me

oh yes thats true ,am really stubborn when it comes to God and I. How come i have to pray all the time...yes God saidwe should pray without ceasing...jeesh! i have to talk all the time...every time i get this beep in my mindthat i dont pray well and that my prayer life is crumbling..even when i try to pray at night i sleep off without ending my prayer or concluding..i repeat this over and over every other nightcan you see how stubborn i am or should i say am lazy or even non-chalant...na i still call it stubbornk..i cant pray all that much so why cant i just em! read the bible....ha! the internet is there to distract me..gosh! is that why he took it away from me...and yet i still dont deep myself in his word all that much.what about times when he tells me to greet all those people i call proud,rude and there there..lol..i try to pass themby without greeting them and this i know is wrong...but i, why would i greet all this people,cant they say alittle hello..but God you know that i greet people alot and when it comes to people that are greedy and saucy i wont wanna greetAt the end of the day i see ,am only justifying myself and judging them..lol..how stubbornwhat can i do to this..this is practical stubborness....stubbornability..lol....ok this aint funny oh! its really bad that i felt i needed deliverance..yes o...cos i felt spiritually dead..whichis very dangerous.so if i cant get one of these into practical,then i mean!!!! whats the essence of my christianity!!whats christianity then ,when i cant apply it to my everyday life and off what use is religion when i cant pleasemy maker..jeeesh! religion or being religious has blind folded me to believing i have it all...jessh!
anyway this is between my lord and I and its high time i start doing what he wants me to do because have come to realise that his will for my life always create somekind of stand and re assurance...i dont need anybody to tell me this,this is something i see and confirmed by the bible...oh! did i forget to tell you that apart from all this i love the bible..so very much...as they say there is nothing new under the sun..i tell there's something better than this phrase pertaining the bible..which is that there is nothing new to the bible....as in.. there is nothing the bible doesnt have to say about..it has just precisely everything..its the perfect book.
ok enough all this !!i am getting better the more i pray... am even getting to know him more and more...and the more i get to know him just feels as if i never knew him b4..he's now my bestfriend n i always start up the quarrell,...lol..but he is merciful and loving..i always meet him where i left him..he is gentle and erm high too..this my bestfriend is very stricthe is very plain and he understands me more than any other person including myself.....
he is free,i get very excited in his presence..but sometimes i get very scared when he comes in full force..i even run out of the room cos of all the mightiness..may he forgive me!!!
even when i do something and am afraid to go to his presence,sometimes i still feel his love and it brings me closer that i feel am wrapped up in something that would not let go off me...some confidence that overshadows.....i dont know why some one wld love me this way and just wait till i improvenow i can wake up 3 oclock to pray and pray for strenght to fast and do other things i never thought i could domercy really said no that he aint gonna let me go...yes thats it!!everyday now its my lord and stubborn me perfecting me for the best and the correction is my lord and upcoming me....lolmy lord and me